So I just had my 32 birthday and did some very fun things! I got a new tattoo, I had a big party, the first since I was ohhh 14. It was a blast. The same weekend my sorority was inducting our new class. So it was exhausting. The 2 days following I spent over 20 hours working on the next version of my video which I threw out after realizing that I had a series of soundbites and zero story. I felt so defeated! Way to end my birthday weekend. The silver lining... the bright side... I figured out the message I want to get across in my video. I have been working on it, but not sure how to get there still.
So the point of my first video was how I don't fit in, but still I am getting so much out of college. I am very intentional about my education. I felt pretty successful at getting that point across.
Video #2... Here's the story, my story. I lived in Las Vegas and I hated my life. First, I didn't like the city and I had been declined for 2 position I applied for in an attempt to get out of Vegas. On a whim applied for college. In February I got an acceptance letter. In April I found out my husband was cheating on me. I started going on 5 mile walks and doing yoga to meditate on it. I determined I needed something that was just mine. I could no longer have my happiness wrapped up in another person. I decided that school was the thing that I needed to do for me.
In school I have thought about identity development. I hated where I was in life and thought a lot about all the things that put me there. My race, gender, class and geography created a lens that made me think that I was doing all that I could. Through school I have discovered that I have many more choices and I am intentionally creating my identity, being true to all the things that are truly me.
So that is what I am going for. 10 more hours in (or so) I think that I am getting there. What do you think of the concept?
More later...
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